LivExtraordinary. . .

Have you ever felt that..you were happy..
but at the same time..you became like a fool?
and then you became the happiest fool on earth...
unbelievable but.....true.. :)

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Days ago..
I bought her some cotton candies..
She asked me if it was for her..
I said yes..and she gave me something precious..
Something i always wished that i could have all of it for myself..
and i was really happy at that time..
because..i had all of it for me and only me..
Guess what?
it's her smile.. :)

Days after that..
Someone made her sad..
Her important someone..
i couldn't do anything for her..
i was afraid that she would turn me down..
i realized that i was a coward...
At that time..
i was only watching while her tears kept on flowing down..
( i regretted not having the courage ).....

But the next day..He brought her to some place for a walk..
When they came back..
I didn't see any tears..except a big warm smile..
She has forgiven him..
She has forgotten what happened the day before..
I felt she was like a fool..
But i was happy that..she wasn't crying anymore
yet..the next moment..
In her eyes..
i saw another fool..and even the biggest fool..
it was me..

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I think..Maybe love makes a fool out of people..But..To love..is really to make the person we love happy..
isn't that right?
till now..i can't even be a hundred percent sure..
i can be what i have said..
but at least..i have something which acts as my compass in love.. :)
( thanks to narasumber " Kupas Tuntas " edisi " sinyal - sinyal cinta " )

1:06..a thought came into my mind..
If one day somebody should ask me..
what is love?
Maybe..my answer would be..
Love is still learning.. :)

Belakangan ini, banyak yang terjadi...banyak...
Bahkan sangat banyak..
Tetapi, tidak akan ada posting foto mengenai kejadian itu..
( tidak akan ada yang siap sedia untuk motret )
tidak akan ada pengulangan..
( sekali sudah melebihi cukup )
Tapi..kejadian itu pasti akan tertata rapi…
dalam kotak kenangan..bernama '' pikiran ''

ada yang seru, ada yang bikin deg-degan..
tetapi ada juga yang memicu kutub negatif hati untuk bekerja..
yaitu..
Pergantian calpan antar sentra DKI.,.
Biasanya dia yang menuntunku..
meski udah menebak - nebak akan kedatangan hal ini..
tapi tetap saja..berasa...
Tiba - tiba rasanya..gue jadi jalan dengan meraba - raba..
Tapi, ampe kemarin pun.. dia masih tetap menyemangati gue..

" Elu udah siap untuk di tinggalkan.. " begitu katanya..
Gue tidak merasa..Tapi..
klo itu katanya..gue percaya..

kalian dan kita...
kedua kata ini tidak terlalu penting bagi ku keberadaanya..
setidaknya, dalam pikiranku selama ini, itulah yang ada..
 tetapi..

( Don't bottle up your feelings.... )
Begitulah selalu kata - kata bule menghadapi temennya yang susah ngeluarin perasaannya...
Dan akupun kembali ngeblog setelah sekian lama menjalani hidup memaksakan perasaan masuk ke dalam " botol " yang di namakan hati...

hahaha....lagi pengen mellow nih...tapi lagi pengen semangat menjalani hidup juga...
2 hal yang kontras banget tapi letaknya bersebelahan..
gmna yaa...hmmm..pokoknya salam selamat tahun baru dlu de...
Emang telat sih tapi toh sekarang masih tetep tahun baru....hahaha xD

" Kalimat ini " ditulis pada saat jam menunjukkan pkul 02.08...
Gue minjem laptop cewe - cewe yang ngekos seblok ama gue buat ngeblog..sambil di iringi lagu...
jadi inget laptop gue yang ngilang tanpa kabar setelah hanya di gunakan seminggu..hahaha..x)
tapi ada yang lebih gue kangenin daripada laptop yang udah ntah kemana itu..
and that's the girl who lived in the room just right in front of my eyes..
gue lagi duduk menghadap jendela bening yang menjadi bingkai gambaran kamarnya.. :)

her name's not special..it's not Caroline neither Crystal...
kadang - kadang gue bahkan ingin memberinya nama yang lebih istimewa..
because..she's like the best portrait god ever created..
sayangnya..Udah ada yang berhasil membuka gerbang hatinya...
and that person's not me...

Gue masih pengen ngejer...
This time..even if in the end my tears have to brim..
I'm gonna chase my dream..
be truthful to my feelings..
because i want to live extraordinary.. :)

Instead of keeping my feeling inside my heart as the bottle, i would rather write this blog..
and let this blog be the bottle instead of my heart.. :)

( i have bought her a bear which..i haven't got the courage to give it to her )

sekarang 02:53..dan waktu terus berjalan..
meninggalkan ku dalam lamunan..